My life has been one fucking bump of a ride. The things ive been through to be put me where i am today, i’d do again in a heart beat. For the people who’ve stuck by me and understand everything i need to do to stay where i am. ill forever be grateful. Things can be tricky, I am happy, sad,pissed, or any other feelings i ever am i can be on any giving day but i am always grateful to feel those feelings, and be able to deal with them. Life isnt pretty. Its very messy, but as long as we make a decision to make it whatever we want to, it will be. Life on Lifes terms shows up everyday. but as song i as i keep it green and remember where i am today i can never stop being grateful for what i have, instead of upset for what i dont have. b/c in life, ive got everything i ever need, family, a few good friends, and the decision to make it great.
3 years ago
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So being i’ve only been home for 5 days, and as i look back and read my old entries its funny knowing where i was 5 months ago, and where i stand today. Its amazing that now i deal wit life on lifes terms, that fact ive come to realize that i have power over nothing in this world as made me see life through a whole new pair of eyes. Things have come to hit me some bad and some good, knowing what i do know now, bout the whole powerless thing as made me accept everything thrown my way. That no matter what i can handle it, and that god is not just “shitty on my life.” so it amazing how life is on its own terms is amazing and that even the bad things in my life, im totally ok with it. and grateful.Because they’ve shaped me into the person i am today. Life its a funny thing, we only get one chance to make it right, but no matter what we do how far we succeed, or no matter how bad we fuck up, we only get one chance to fuck it up or make it right, so when you succeed enjoy it and try not to fuck it up, but if by chance you do deal wit it cause you can always make it right. Start over but never forget how you fucked it up, cause that will alway let you remember where you stand today, dealing wit life on its own terms. and remember Your story is the best and worst story you will ever hear.
3 years ago
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people fucking suck and can be nasty as hell well fuck them is what i say… seriously done with peoples shit.. they’ll learn.. they will learn.
4 years ago
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What a fucking day, lets begin with- I’m out taking pictures with Brit, when all of a sudden, my zoom doesn’t wanna turn. So i take off my lens and check it out and their is a fucking piece broken off inside, pissed as hell. Needless to say I went and got it fixed and should have it back from 10 to 14 business days…Again annoying but what are you going do. Oh No It does’t stop there…then… While leaving best buy, there was a cop about 6 or 7 cars back, I say to Brit, ” I’m def going to get pulled over its just my luck.”she says “No why would you, your not doing anything wrong.” Well.. lets say about four lights later, I get pulled over for swtiching lanes, not using my blinker for the 100ft your supposed to(who does anyway?) But ask where I commited these crimes oh in front of best buy, where did I get pulled over oh infront of t-mobile about 2 miles away. Fucking cops, but thank god my uncle is NYPD, cause I got no tickets i got no tickets!!! haha. NO seriously thank god that probably woulda been some points. But No again did not end there, in pathmark parking lot my door is open and the guy in the car next to me was walkin behind me and bugged the fuck out because my car was 2 inchs away from his, dude starting freaking out, I just got in my car and cursed him out, what a fucking idiot who the fuck does that. Anyway, People today are fucking nuts. That guy isn’t the first crazy freak i met today either. People keep your crazyy selfs home, just because your a freak doesn’t mean you have to go and share you freakness with the world. stay home damnit!
What a Day, Whatta Day!
4 years ago
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Well, I officially learned how to be a house wife today, cooked,did laundry, got my sister from the train, and took care of my mom cause she’s sickk! haha I find it funny kinda made me forget about things that bother me most. Getting tired of the same old feelings just hoping to find something someone to turn it all around for me. I guess eventually it will. Like one of many of my favorite quotes “Everything will be ok in the end, if it isn’t it isn’t the end.” So i sit here and wait for the end.. we’ll see will it be ok? I sure hope
4 years ago
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